If You Wanted

"If You wanted me to be like You, why'd You make me like me?"

The song got to me.

It is never easy to follow Him, especially when so much is to be given up. But it is what we're all doing.

Following Him will cost me my world. He will not settle for anything less.

There is pain in surrender. But that's okay. Crucifying myself is exactly that: crucifixion. Every bone in my body will shatter until all I have is my death. It will hurt. I will fight back. But I will die. And when I die, I will stand resurrected with Him.

You will, too.

God will not leave me waiting. He will be silent, but He will not leave me. That alone is enough.

Surrender is only surrender when it hurts. The crowns God wants for each of us is one made of thorns. But if all of that is to have Him, then it is with joy and trembling do I surrender myself. Because I'd rather have Him than anything else.

Hope whatever I'm saying gets to someone, anyone. Or not. I'm happy to breathe out thoughts either way.

Thanks for listening. =) Peace? :O